I don’t know what struck me. I thought I was in senses. But
then there was something that made the whole night so blur, and I hadn’t a
pint. I wasn’t intoxicated or injected or injured, but then there was something
that made the events of the night so messed. I am trying, trying as hard as I
can, to think logically, to be wise and not act foolishly. But it’s all in
vain.
I have had my falls, a lot many of them too. But then there
was a jolt that jerked me to stand up. It gave me confidence to think hard and
to be who I was. I believe I was confident, could face any challenge and could
be who I was! But then there was something in the night that made all that
confidence dwindle. I don’t think there was a fault in me, I don’t think there
was something awkward, but then there was something in the night that made me
doubt my judgment.
I am thinking hard, I can’t be such a fool. I try to be
reasonable, evaluate every move I made. What was it that was missing? What was
it that I did wrong? And then, just when I started recording it, it hit me like
the big bang, and just as it brought the World into being, I realized what
happened that night.
It was you, all along, you and only you. Ages had passed
since you had laid eyes on me; ages had passed since I had seen you. I don’t
know about you, but I had certain expectations from me. I wanted to be perfect, so that you could
fall for me all over again; I wanted to be far much better than you had thought
I would be. And though I tried to be the best I can, there was something
missing in me. You would look pretty I knew. The world would be around you, I
knew. And I had to be better than the rest, so that you could be proud of me.
I got dressed the best I could, tried to be as gentlemanly
as I could. And when standing at the threshold of the gate, everything seemed
to be so meager that couldn’t hold. And then the unbelievable happened. And I
laid my eyes on you. You were the true caricature of an angel, you were the
God’s idea of princess. The night lit up with your beauty. And as for me, I
have no idea, as I was in a fairy tale and a princess was walking towards me.
I fumbled I guess, I am not sure. I couldn’t move my glare
away from you. I should have tried a little harder, to look a little better, I
thought. But then your smile and those glistening eyes assured me. And that’s
what made the night stay still for me.
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